Existed

I can google your name
and it's like you never even existed.
"First 25 of 166 words" is all it says in the place I used to visit everyday.

It's like you never existed.

I can look at a photograph of you dancing in the ocean
and it's like you never even existed.
The edges are torn and yellowed, fingerprint-scared, and forgotten.

It's like you never existed.

I can look into my mind and hear your voice and smell your house and taste your soups,
but I can't touch your face,
It's like you never even existed;
my mind is playing games with my heart
because you always, always,
always
existed.