#14

It's another day,
flies by like the rest.

But the difference is
your smile your laugh you're everything
and you are the reason I woke up this morning
but of course I would never tell you that,
you see I'm just not that girl.

It's another day,
flies by like the rest.

But the difference is
my heart pounds I have butterflies I'm everything to you
and when I think about you I can't help but smile,
but of course I would never tell you that,
you see I'm just not that girl.


It's another day,
flies by like the rest,
but you make it Wednesday.

Freeze Frame

But I'm standing alone now,
and I used to know
the spot next to you
*is where I belong*

But I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

Was it that night?
because I'm pretty sure
you said to me,
*I love you*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

But I'm running away down a road
that I've gone down,
a millions of times,
*the flowers crying*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

My feet carried me,
to that spot.
The place where we sat down,
*the wind combed my hair*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

YOU said I was beautiful.
YOU said you loved me.
YOU said I was perfect.
YOU said you loved me.
YOU said we would last forever.
YOU said you loved me.

But I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

rewind.

playback.

freeze.

One Million and One

I'll run inside
-open the door-
and the screen slams shut
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

And I'll run in the house
-fly up the stairs-
no hands on the railings
(as my mother told me not to do)
a million times.

So I'll go to my room
-throw the door closed-
and the whole house shakes
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll cry on my bed
-sobs become screaming-
not caring who hears
(as my friends told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll remember
-my mind plays a movie-
here comes the sad song
(as my mother told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll be drowning
-gasping, clawing for air-
twenty feet under
(as you told me not to do)
a million times.

And I'll be shattering
-a hundred tiny pieces-
there I go
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

So I'll be there
-but not really-
drifting off slowly
(as they told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll be one million and one
-stronger than ever-
learning, not trusting
controlling
believing.
breathing.
*living*
(as I tried to tell myself to do)
a million times.

without a Ceiling

Encased within
four strong walls,
without a Ceiling
so close
but yet so far.

Tasting the glory,
unseen
except by me.

I just want you to know who I am.

Lollipops and Bakers' Chocolate

It's all a game
this thing called life.

Start at square one,
roll the dice- take a chance.
advance.
Stop at square five,
pick the card- take a chance.
advance.
Stop at square thirteen,
betray the friend- take a chance.
advance.

chance.
chance.
chance.

Stop at square twenty,
betray the friend- take a chance.
to no avail.
Stop at square thirteen,
pick the card- take a chance.
to no avail.
Stop at square five,
roll the dice- take a chance.
to no avail.

End at square one.

Lose?

It's all just a game,
this thing called life.

Not A Love Poem

I promised myself I'd never write a Love Poem.
I'm simply not that kind of girl.
But:


A sweet melody
softly swings from
my window,
across the terrace,
down the vines.

It skips down the driveway,
under twinkling stars,
drifting father and farther
from the
sidewalk.

A sweet melody
softly sweeps from
my heart,
down through my shoes,
dances across the floor.

It flies and it soars,
content but longing
looking for one other:
the missing piece to the puzzle,
the last note of the song.

A sweet melody
softly swung from
my window,
across the terrace,
climbed down the vines.
A sweet melody
softly swept from
my heart,
through my shoes,
and danced across the floor.

Stepped off the sidewalk
under the twinkling stars.
Swung and swept over to you.
We danced in the street with no music on,
Me?a little nervous. A little unsure.
Your arms are the puzzle piece
(I've been searching for forever)
The sidewalk: my doubts
(I've been searching forever)
Last note of the song:
your voice.
whisper softly in my ear.


I promised myself
I'd never write a love poem.
I'm just not that girl.

...but I've been wrong before.

Figuring 'it' Out

from blue to yellow
from yellow to orange
from orange to red
from red to black
from black to silver
silver to twinkling.

from sparkle to infant
from infant to child
from child to teen
from teen to adult
from adult to wise
wise to lost

from sorrow to lonely
from lonely to needy
from needy to needed
from needed to loved
from loved to forever
forever to ever.

from lost to empty
from empty to satisfied
from satisfied to full
from full to happiness
from happiness to nirvana
nirvana to end.

(and time flies Bye)

)but the memories still remain(

slow down,
take a breath
time is short.
listen close:
the :music; won't last.

Four Walls

Did you know,
aerodynamically,
the bumblebee shouldn't be able to
fly?

It takes a little time
to undo the shackles
on my wrists.

Maybe I'm trapped
within four walls
without a hope in sight.

Or maybe I'm not
for nobody has told me
what my destiny truly is.

destiny?



So why does the bumblebee fly?

Unseen

Eight billion.
Seven hundred.
Fifty six.
Or something along those lines. ()

Un(seen) as the warm breeze.
Un(seen) as the world.
Un(seen) as hope.
Un(seen) as the world.

Eight billion.
Seven hundred.
Fifty six.
Or something along those lines.

From where I am
It seems I stand,
Pretty much Un(seen).

Eight billion.
Seven hundred.
Fifty six.
Or something along those lines.

Eight billion.
Seven hundred.
Fifty six.
Or something along those lines.

8,000,756.

(and all you need is one)

Warm Gun

Found a blue book,
Broken blue spine.
A poem in the cover,
Didn't even rhyme.

It was by a boy about his father
Who went off to the war.
It was about how the hatred
Cut him to the core.

Killing innocent people,
Death at his hand,
Father trudged on.
Following every order, following every command.

Bible in his pocket,
Picture of his son
But nothing could give him hope,
Until the war was finally won.

In the barracks at night;
He cried and cried.
People spoke of war being glory:
All of them lied.

"Why, oh why not love,
but hate?
This world is ours,
think of what we could create."

But glory is power
and power is glory
And so must be
this sad World's story.

Happiness is a warm gun.

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Oh don't you know by now?

Picture Perfect

start.

picture perfect scene.
Not a lie. Fairy tale.
Not a lie.
Truth?

Play the game.

End.

Life

fly away--
high above the City of
Twinkling Lights.
How beautiful it looks,

high up in the clouds.

Fool.

Missing a line.

The wind blows as I think the crickets sing the frogs speak the rain falls against my window and I have everything except one thing because without you it doesn't make sense the beauty is incomplete but you will never know that because we are just friends you know everything about me but my one little secret when the leaves rustle I hear your voice so speak softly my dear.

So this is it.

They said,
they said that,
maybe this is it.

They don't,
they don't say,
the things we need to hear.

They say,
they say that.
And I drop a single tear.

They don't,
they don't say,
the things we need to know.

They say,
they say that.
And my heart sinks slow.

At one word,
one word,
I feel alone.

And I wish,
wish,
I could have known.

If I knew,
that this would happen,
I would have cherished
every moment.

But I didn't know,
I couldn't have known.
So this is it.

Free

Free.
The wind blows my curly hair
back.
Free.
The birds sing their sweet
song.
Free.
The trees dance in the
breeze.
Free.
The frogs leap into placid
water.
Free.
The air carries the sent of
peace.
Free.

And I feel free.

All For You

sittIng next
to you.
resisting the urge ( )
to hold your hand.

taLking to you
and you don't knOw
how much
i'm trying now not
to get caught up in you.

looking at you.
your Very face makes me smile.
and when i'm with you
i feEl like flying.

It's amazing how ( )
love
can make you see the world
so much more beautifullY.
i just want
tO shoUt.
to giggle.
to lean down,
smell the sweet flowers. ( )
the cool grass against my bare feet
gives me new wonder.

if you could see
*truly see*
inTo my heart,
it would sing for you.
it would sIng
every sweet Melody
known to man:
all for you.

Everything(.)

I look up at the moon,
the stars,
the beautiful night sky.

I hear the sweet silence outside me,
the beating of my heart,
my wishes inside my head.

Are you seeing the same sky as me?
Do you think of me,
late at night.
Like I think of you?

Do you long for somebody,
somebody to understand you.
truly.
completely.
?
Do you want somebody
to sing the sweet song,
that lives in your heart.
(when you can't yourself?)
Do you see?
Do you need me?
do you need me like I need you?
Because,
honestly,
I've never felt like this before.
I just need.
need.

I wish that I could be,
your everything.

I wish I could give you,
the key to my heart.

I wish that you could be here,
whisper softly,
my dear.

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1.
Hi.

2.
Hey.

3.
I have a question.

4.
Okay.

5.
it's "why?"

6.
( )

Out Of Time

I'll sit here, stare ,
at that clock- on the wall.
I'll watch that hand,
tick, tock, tick, tock.
Running.
Oh, I'm running.
Tick.
Out of-
Tock.
Time.
I'm searching,
Seeking.
Tick.
Searching for that answer.
The one thing
that will make it-
Tock.
-okay.
Tick.
Tock.
Why?! Why is the world
one big question?!
Tick.
Is the answer even here?
(another question)
I've searched the-
Tock.
-depths of the ocean.
The sky.
And it's not there.
Tick.
Maybe the answer isn't
real.
(am I real?)
Tock.
Or maybe the answer
is inside
us )?(
Tick.
It would help to know.
What if,
we searched
(TOGETHER)
-- would we find it?
Together?
Tock.
Maybe thats the
answer.
Together.
Let's try it.
Tick.
Hurry.
Tock.
We're running-
Tick.
-Out of-
Tock.
-Time-
Tick.
!
Tock.

Done.

From Where I Sit

From where I sit,
I think.
The past.
The present.
The future too.

I think of what I learned
(no not just books)
from you.

You (willow.)
(strong, sturdy, but graceful.)
)poised(.

(I) birch.
fragile, weak, but beautiful.

From you,
I learned.
Strength is a choice.

Hope is an option.

Fate is yours to choose.

One Word

There is a word.
Four simple letters.
A simple word with four
simple letters.

I know a girl.
She's lost inside the labyrinth
of her life.
Constantly wandering.
Nobody to turn to.

~and she knows.~

She wishes she could have four simple letters
(a simple word with four
simple letters)
all for herself.

Oh, she wants to go home.
Why is nobody home>?
Don't know where she
belongs.
Lost inside a big world.

Can nobody find her?!
SOMEBODY-FIND-HER-!
So-ME-Bo-Dy show her
four simple letters.


Love?
no.
Think deeper.


Help.

?Survive.

I'm tripping now, falling.
Spinning around.
Can't stop.
darkness.
Falling.
FALLing.
Where am I now?
Upside down,
you can't stop me.
GriPPing/
clawing--
flailing.
failing.
LooKING for something
.anything.
to hold on to.
When you think
the ride
has (ended...)
why,
does it start again>?
Why is there nothing but stone
to catch my fall?
Can anybody hear me?
does anybody WANT to hear me?
Further and further.
When I hit the ground,
I'll surely turn myself around.
I will not cry.
I, I--
I-
I-
will
?survive.

All I Have Left

eyes wIde open
in brighT (colors):
i'm surrounded.
(rainboWs) of light
(dance) before my (eyes).
capture this (moment).

and It's a (beautifuL) (day),
i won't Let it get away,
it's a (Beautiful) (day)
yEt, i still wait for you to
(SAY.)

(hearts) are in (bloom)
Sprout out of cOncrete
(earth), face (adversity).
still, they remember to
say:

it's a (beautiful) (day),
keep it, don't let it get away.
a beAutiful day.
i still need to hear You
(SAY.)

[BUT I DON'T BELIEVE YOU, I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU]
[AND YOU DON'T BELIEVE YOU]
:[I MUST REMEMBER]:

it's a (beautiful) (day).

(because this is all i have left).

Not tonight

Wake up,
shivering.
(its summer)
3 am.
Cry.

I love you more,
than I did before.
If I don't see your face
(again)
I want you to know.
I love you,
and I need you.
So please,
please
don't go.

When you're gone,
so will be
p ie ce s of my heart
(I'll be missing you)

When you go,
the face I know
will be gone too.

(If you go)
the words I need to hear
(that get me through the day)
make me okay.
will be gone.

I always needed you
by my side.
But I never thought I,
(would need you there
when I cried.)
The weeks feel like months,
the days are eternities.
can you see how much I need you
(now?!)

So please
please
(please)
I said.
Don't go.
Hang on,
(if only one day more.)
I'll stay here.
I'll hold your hand.

I'll try to believe you,
when you tell me
(it will be okay.)
I'll try to believe you.
I wont.
Today,
I'm not ready.
Tomorrow,
(maybe I will be.)

I know,
eventually,
(you will have to)
let go.
Just please,

not tonight.

You

You showed me strength is a choice
(so choose it and choose well.)

You showed me hope is all we live for
(so live and live well.)

You showed me faith is the answer
(so answer and answer well)

You.

You showed me love and how to love
(so love and love well.)

I'm everything I am.
You.
Because of you.

Book Review: The Pact by Jodi Picoult

Ah, here we go. The first book review. EVER :)
I don't really want to write a summary of the book, too many people do that and honestly, you can just google it and find a perfectly good summary.

This book definitely would appeal to teenagers and parents. It has a fast-paced story line, but it's mentally not an easy read. Honestly, it's intense. It has suspense, drama, and of course a good murder case in it :)
There are some mature elements in it, so please, please, please DO NOT give this to a young child no matter how amazing of a reader they are!
I read this in about a week or so. It was fast and honestly was not that hard of a read.

Im getting tired of writing in sentences (must be why I'm a poet)

~fast
~strong plot
~suspenseful
~drama-filled
~a book that you never want to end :) (ahhh the Harry Potter series)
~emotional (actually "emotional" is an understatement, but I don't know of any better word for it haha)


Overall, this gets a 9.5 out of 10 on the "Hannah Scale"
an excellent read :)

To Find the Words to say the Sentences to spark the Conversation to Make this Right

Finding
Seeking.
Searching.
Finding.

I can't find.
Reasons.
So many.
To find the words.

I can't find.
Words.
So many.
To find the sentences.

I can't find.
Sentences.
So many.
To find the conversation.

I can't find.
Conversation.
So many.
To find.

How can the only thing,
killing.
me.
Be
Making me feel so alive?

Said

She said
I said.
true.
He said
I said.
true.
They said.
We said.
true.

say. say. say. Told. said. said. said.


Lies.