#14

It's another day,
flies by like the rest.

But the difference is
your smile your laugh you're everything
and you are the reason I woke up this morning
but of course I would never tell you that,
you see I'm just not that girl.

It's another day,
flies by like the rest.

But the difference is
my heart pounds I have butterflies I'm everything to you
and when I think about you I can't help but smile,
but of course I would never tell you that,
you see I'm just not that girl.


It's another day,
flies by like the rest,
but you make it Wednesday.

Freeze Frame

But I'm standing alone now,
and I used to know
the spot next to you
*is where I belong*

But I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

Was it that night?
because I'm pretty sure
you said to me,
*I love you*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

But I'm running away down a road
that I've gone down,
a millions of times,
*the flowers crying*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

My feet carried me,
to that spot.
The place where we sat down,
*the wind combed my hair*

I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

YOU said I was beautiful.
YOU said you loved me.
YOU said I was perfect.
YOU said you loved me.
YOU said we would last forever.
YOU said you loved me.

But I don't know anymore,
so rewind.
playback.
freeze.

rewind.

playback.

freeze.

One Million and One

I'll run inside
-open the door-
and the screen slams shut
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

And I'll run in the house
-fly up the stairs-
no hands on the railings
(as my mother told me not to do)
a million times.

So I'll go to my room
-throw the door closed-
and the whole house shakes
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll cry on my bed
-sobs become screaming-
not caring who hears
(as my friends told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll remember
-my mind plays a movie-
here comes the sad song
(as my mother told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll be drowning
-gasping, clawing for air-
twenty feet under
(as you told me not to do)
a million times.

And I'll be shattering
-a hundred tiny pieces-
there I go
(as my father told me not to do)
a million times.

So I'll be there
-but not really-
drifting off slowly
(as they told me not to do)
a million times.

I'll be one million and one
-stronger than ever-
learning, not trusting
controlling
believing.
breathing.
*living*
(as I tried to tell myself to do)
a million times.

without a Ceiling

Encased within
four strong walls,
without a Ceiling
so close
but yet so far.

Tasting the glory,
unseen
except by me.

I just want you to know who I am.